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Former NFL RB Larry Johnson Believes He Has CTE

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KANSAS CITY, MO - SEPTEMBER 29: A general view during the game between the New York Giants and the Kansas City Chiefs at Arrowhead Stadium on September 29, 2013 in Kansas City, Missouri. (Photo by Jamie Squire/Getty Images)

Johnson says he can't remember two of his seven seasons in the league.

In an interview with the Washington Post, former NFL running back Larry Johnson revealed that he believes he's living with chronic traumatic encephalopathy (CTE), a condition doctors believe can be caused by repeated blows to the head.

Johnson says he suffers from mood swings, anxiety, headaches and is often forgetful. The details he provides of his daily life are gut-wrenching.

"If I can't remember who I was, I've got YouTube; I've got music videos that I'm making for myself, so when I watch these things I can remember," Johnson tells the Post. "I'm trying to get these things in order so she knows who I am and what I came from."

Johnson adds that of his seven seasons in the NFL, he can only remember five of them.

CTE has been found in the brains of many former football players, most notably Aaron Hernandez, the former Patriots tight end who took his own life in prison while serving a life sentence for murder.

Johnson often wonders if he'll end up like Hernandez:

"A bittersweet thing: I'm going to be free of everything that's holding me down," Johnson said. "The same way Aaron [Hernandez] thought: I'm going to be gone from this world, but I'm still going to be able to take care of my child, because that's all I care about."

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